Just hold on & everything will be okay

But what if it won’t be. Because what if you’re not sure what you’re holding on to?

If this was something I really worked hard for and wanted then yeah I’ll hold on.

But if it’s something I’m not sure I want. Why am I trying so hard to make it right. Why am I trying so hard?

Why am I so desperate at a happy ending?

Do you ever feel the same?

Have you ever been so afraid of life, of people itself, of your mental health and hence just sit still and let it all move and grow while u stay stagnant and trapped?

Somebody pull the plunge bc it feels like I’m fucking drowning.

Well whatever it is,

I hope I find my answer soon.

I love you girl.

Xoxo, Anda